Saturday, September 22, 2007

I don't really have anything to say.

So things are just holding on around here. Not much to talk about because I don't really feel like reiterating everything...I'm either sad about Gina or fucking pissed off about being made to feel guilty because I can't "help" more. Well ya know what? I have a job. More than 1 job. And I have 2 kids. And all the crap that goes with that. And can't forget the husband. So I do what I can with helping out. My mom doesn't work and can help Gina. Cara doesn't work, doesn't have kids, can help Gina. Clare, Gina's partner, can help Gina all the time.

It doesn't have to be me, or my dad. We're the only ones who have responsibilities....

aw shit, see i just get pissed off.

Work is going okay. I still don't feel as though I fit in 100%, but whatever. I'm trying not to pick up any extra shifts right now. I turned down a graveyard tonight and a swing shift next week. I just need to spend more time with my family.

Going to a strip club tonight with a bunch of people from the other hospital I work at (AGH). Tom doesn't want to go. Luckily its not all couples or I wouldn't be going. It should be fun, but I'm not going to be drinking, so maybe it won't be....I have to work tomorrow AM...

Thank you to my few faithful blog readers, I appreciate you, and I'm sorry I'm so freaking boring....hehehehehe

5 comments:

Kimmykay said...

Mary, I'm so sorry you life is as it is right now. You are doing great for your family. Waiting is a b!tch and guilt will come with it no matter what. Hang in there sweetie. My heart is aching for you.

slh said...

Hang in there Mary. I know you're feeling guilty, but you're doing what you can.

Hugs.

Doodah Girl said...

Hugs to you Mary! It sucks to feel helpless. I think of you and your sister often.

Di said...

Hey too bad you can't post some pictures from the strip club? ha ha. Go easy on yourself. Your a mom and you work, you can only do SO much! Stop giving yourself such a hard time.

Chelle Y. said...

You're not boring! You have so much on your plate right now.

You do a lot for everyone! I am thinking of you and sending over hugs too!

 

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