The hard parts
Seeing your father in law, who is a nice person but you have practically no relationship with, crying.
Seeing Tom's grandma looking at her husband of 55 years, not crying, but just so sad.
Hearing people talk about funeral arrangements when no one has died yet.
Jake drew a picture for his great grandpa. He told me "I drew me giving hugs. That's my suprised face because I am suprised that he's going to die. I don't want him to die." He had overheard me talking to my sister about it all.
Knowing that we didn't see Al as much as we should have, so alot of what I'm feeling is guilt, and there is nothing I can do about it.
Switching gears cuz I don't want to cry anymore.
Jake just told me "I realy appreciate that you bought me yogurt drinks mom." What a little monkey. I say stuff like that when he picks up without asking, or stuff like that. He's gonna be a kiss up I think.
Right now Jake and Clara are cuddled up on our chair watching Blue's Clue's. 15 or 20 minutes ago they were both screaming bloody murder over the damn chair. This happens everyday. Think it's time to buy a stupid couch yet???
Tink rocks
About Me
- Mary
- I'm 32, wife to Tom, mom to Jacob 11, and Clara 9, and Annalise 1. I can't spell, I watch too much TV, I need to lose weight, but I love to laugh, run around with my kids, and I enjoy being a mom, wife AND individual person.
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4 comments:
Bean bags are cheaper... And a whole lot more fun for kiddos. I know everything is NOT well, but I hope it gets better. Here's to praying you get some laughter in your life to stifle the tears.
((Mary))
Tink we had bean bags before. 2 of them somehow got busted up. If and when we get a couch, it will most likely be a cheapo, maybe second hand if in good condition. The only requirement is that it's 3-4 inches off the ground due to the retarded heat vent placement of our livingroom...
Thanks ladies--I only cried twice today. On the way to school listening to a sad song, and then a little bit ago while Tom and I were discussing that what we are dealing with, the death of a grandparent, will in the coming years be common. Including Al, Tom has 5 grandparents, and I have 4.
It's probably a good thing I'm not going into radiation therapy, where I'd only be dealing with cancer patients, eh?
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