Friends

Beware my few readers. This is long and rambly, and a big vent. If you feel like it, just read the last couple of paragraphs and tell me what to do.

I only have 3 friends that I see on any sort of regular basis. Kim was my walking/jogging buddy that I met when I worked at the hospital. Her son turns 2 later this month, and they are moving to Vancover this weekend. I'm really bummed out about this.

Shel I've known for about 9 years now. I met her WAAAAAAY back when I played laser tag. I was actually better friends with her husband at first, but then when I started working at Cinnabon in the mall, and she worked in a store there, I saw her alot and we got pretty close. We don't see each other too much now, but we talk probably once a week, and get together 1-2 times a month. Her daughter Emmy was 'created' due to her husband falling in love with Clara.

My third and final friend is Jamie. I've known her now for 7 or 8 years. I met her when I started working at Cinnabon, she was the new manager there. Then when I quit and started working in a different mall, I helped get her a job as a manager there too, and I went back to work for her. Since then, we've been pretty good friends. Her daughter, Amanda, is our close friend (she's 13), and Jake and Clara both adore her. She's pretty much spent the last 3 summers at our house, she goes on trips with us, and she's currently the only person who watches our kids, other than my parents.

Jamie has this totally fucked up relationship with Dipshit (or Jim as he is called). He is the biggest fucking loser in the world. They've had this fucked up thing for going on 5 years now. She actually got pregnant(not intentionally) RIGHT after I got pregnant with Jake, and to this day I don't know if she miscarried or had an abortion. She wanted to have an abortion, then on the Wednesday before Thanksgiving she decided to NOT have one, and then miscarried that Friday. So whatever, we can all just praise the Lord that she never had that baby. Seriously.

Jim is a member of NA who has relapsed atleast three times, but only admits to once, since the other 2 only invovle those harmless little pills like oxycoton. About a year ago Jamie ended things 'for good.' This was after 2+ years of breaking up, making up, repeat a million times. She didn't have any contact with him, other than his harrassing phone calls at work, and his leaving notes on her car, for a good 4 or 5 months. Then in March he was finally able to wear her down, and she started seeing him again. Of course she doesn't tell me for a couple of weeks because she's knows she's being a stupidhead. And big shocker here, things don't work out. So she again ends things in June or so(and he was out of town for 8 weeks in April and May so not even around to fight with).

In August she said he was leaving notes on her car again, and sending text messages that would say how he missed her, then change to threatening and cussing her out, then go back to begging her, all in a matter of minutes. So she changed her number. That worked until his son came to visit and wanted to see Jamie. She couldn't tell the kid to fuck off-he's only 9, so she saw the boy a few times while he was here. And now he won't leave her alone again. And I forgot to mention that fucknuts bought a house down the street from the apartments Jamie manages.

I called her house to see if Amanda wanted to come over tomorrow, and guess where Jamie was, yep at a movie with fucking dipshit Jim. These were the text messages I sent her.

1.) ??????
2.) The ??'s are re:J
her.) What R U asking?
3.) Nothing I'm obviously confused
her.) Yeah me too I'll call you tomorrow.
4.) okay doaky, don't do anything ELSE fucked up
her.) yes mommy

What the hell am I supposed to say to her? I'm not going to be nice. I have a hard time believing this would cost our friendship, but so be it. She is totally fucking Amanda up by staying with this, in my opinion, dangerous stalker who deals with anger problems (he does steroids too).

I just want to grab her and slam her into the wall and yell at her. I don't think she realizes how convoluted Amanda's ideas of men must be, or by seeing Jim mere days after he swore 'he's never leaving me alone, he'll always be there watching' she's just encourgaing him for NEXT time he'll get even worse and push harder. I'm so scared for the day Amanda shows up on my doorstep to live here after Jim kills Jamie. I can totally see this psycho asshole doing that.

fuck.