A tentative YES

I'm really nervous. As you may have read, back in July I was told I was the 5th alternate for the radiology tech program I had applied for. I was really upset about it for a couple of days, but I moved on. A couple of weeks ago I found out I had moved up to alternate #2, from #5, but most likely would be #1 due to a failed background check. I got a call today from the lady who is in charge of selecting students, and it sounds like I have a spot. One of the accepted students is a reservist and has been called up. She said she'll know for sure by the end of the week, and sending me a letter telling me to do the background check and send in my deposit. She sounded very sure, that I would get the spot--but still said it was a 'tentative yes' and she was just giving me the heads up.

Now I'm feeling all anxious for 2 reasons.

1.) Even though she THOUGHT the guy would be going, he might not. So she jumped the gun in calling me. (our family friend who thought he was going to Afghanistan was only given 5 days notice that they would be deployed, then found out 3 days later that he actually wasn't going, only 1/2 of their 'crew' was.) So basically I'm anxious about getting my hopes up, then get them smashed down again.

2.) I had gotten used to the idea of not going. I was going to find a part time job and work 1-2 days a week, then take 2 classes, and enjoy spending time with the kiddos. Now if I get this spot, I have to find fulltime daycare by the 26th of Sept. and need to find a way to pay for it. That also means I need to figure out preschool in addition to daycare, if we end up using a home provider, since I want Jake in a more classroom enviornment atleast part-time.

So I guess think happy thoughts for me, that I do get the spot, and that I can get the daycare+$$$ thing all figured out.